I need to learn to love myself.
And I'm tired of my life the way that it is.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009
2009
Jeremy Piven is hot. His character on Entourage, Ari Gold, makes him even hotter. Totally smokin'. 
In 2009 I will:
Try not to react (irrationally) out of an explosion of emotion.
Have fewer hangups.
Be less selfish.
Donate to a charity that I feel strongly about.
Be a little more comfortable in my own skin.
Be more positive about everything, not just the easy things.
Push myself toward growth, no matter the level of discomfort it brings.
Close the doors that need closed; making myself available for new doors to open.
Go to Nashville + 1.
Pay all my bills on time.
Exercise regularly (even though it sucks and it's really hard for me).
Pack my lunch for work instead of eating out all the time.
Lose weight, including in my face!
Learn to focus on what matters and stop sweating the small stuff.
[unsaid goals for TWD].
Tap into my potential on purpose.
Be more honest with myself.
Not let a guy make me feel lesser than I am.
Take the reigns a little more for my own life and direction.
Take pride in my accomplishments.
Learn to say no and realize that it's ok.
Practice.
In 2009 I will:
Try not to react (irrationally) out of an explosion of emotion.
Have fewer hangups.
Be less selfish.
Donate to a charity that I feel strongly about.
Be a little more comfortable in my own skin.
Be more positive about everything, not just the easy things.
Push myself toward growth, no matter the level of discomfort it brings.
Close the doors that need closed; making myself available for new doors to open.
Go to Nashville + 1.
Pay all my bills on time.
Exercise regularly (even though it sucks and it's really hard for me).
Pack my lunch for work instead of eating out all the time.
Lose weight, including in my face!
Learn to focus on what matters and stop sweating the small stuff.
[unsaid goals for TWD].
Tap into my potential on purpose.
Be more honest with myself.
Not let a guy make me feel lesser than I am.
Take the reigns a little more for my own life and direction.
Take pride in my accomplishments.
Learn to say no and realize that it's ok.
Practice.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Aware and oblivious.
Love is complicated.
It makes no sense while making perfect sense.
It's incredibly mind-boggling that you can love someone so vehemently one moment and not the next. What makes us change our mind or heart? Can it be prevented or are we simply cycling through our series of events in the order they were intended for us? Why do we grow apart? Eh, I know all of the reasons that you know... but I'm saying... really, what gives?!
We're human, we mess up, we fall down, we fail, we succeed, we're selfless and selfish, we're hot and cold, we're moody, sensitive in our purest form.... and we know this! Why is love jealous? At times, presumptuous? How can one love too much? Don't agree? Well, you're wrong. You can love someone too much. How much is too much?
Do we always love people for who they are or how they make us feel? I like the way loving someone makes me feel.... when I'm loved back. It's knowingly quite painful when it's not reciprocated. But no matter the heart's intention, love is love. Is love selfish? Or is it selfless? I think it's both.
It makes no sense while making perfect sense.
It's incredibly mind-boggling that you can love someone so vehemently one moment and not the next. What makes us change our mind or heart? Can it be prevented or are we simply cycling through our series of events in the order they were intended for us? Why do we grow apart? Eh, I know all of the reasons that you know... but I'm saying... really, what gives?!
We're human, we mess up, we fall down, we fail, we succeed, we're selfless and selfish, we're hot and cold, we're moody, sensitive in our purest form.... and we know this! Why is love jealous? At times, presumptuous? How can one love too much? Don't agree? Well, you're wrong. You can love someone too much. How much is too much?
Do we always love people for who they are or how they make us feel? I like the way loving someone makes me feel.... when I'm loved back. It's knowingly quite painful when it's not reciprocated. But no matter the heart's intention, love is love. Is love selfish? Or is it selfless? I think it's both.
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